A fight with my mind
There’s something I really want you to know
But I can’t really find the words.
No, I probably could, I’m just scared of what you’ll think.
Well mostly just plain scared
I don’t know what’s going on here
My head’s a mess; I can’t stop thinking of you
I love it when I’m with you, and I miss you when I’m not
Lately there’s just been a lot of missing you
Wishing I were wherever you were
And those few moments when I do get to talk to you
I feel like I push you away.
Not intentionally and I don’t know if I really do
But I guess I’m just paranoid of losing you.
I know, life’s about chances and taking risks
And usually with me that’s not really a problem
But for the first time, I don’t know why,
It scares me to tell you how much I feel for you
That you’re the best thing that has ever happened to me
That I need you in my life more than anything
But my fear of getting too close
And getting hurt stops me.
But I want to get closer because well, I love you
I think. I’m not exactly sure what that means
Some reason though, I’ve stopped myself tons of times,
From accidentally telling you those three words.
And here I am, back to the point that I can’t tell you this
But I guess if you’ve read this far you know
It’s too late to hold it back
And surprisingly, I’m relieved that you know
At least I don’t have to hide my feelings
Because that’s the last thing I need right now
With all that’s going on in my life
I just need you, to be there
To talk to, to hold me, to love me
Because I love you
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